Drives
reasons, motivations, intentions;
responsibility alone isn’t enough, but -
could it be a start?
what’s my reason for this season?
emotion, sincerity, empathy;
been handed this position, but -
could i have the same drives, intentions and goals?
where’s my passion for this season?
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“much effort”
Is burn-out at so fast a rate normal for this? Or is that why you asked them to have their reasons to be doing what they’re doing? Fire refines ore, but too hot a furnace for too long doesn’t get you pure metal either, does it?
Occasionally I wonder if this is another one in my long list of missed opportunities. I guess I can say I have experienced “much effort” before, but likely not at such “impulse” (intensity over time). In any case, I simply just can’t imagine myself in it, and this blocking fear was never overcome enough for me to ever find out or even consider it. Well, I guess I’ll just observe, as I used to do, and am used to doing.
Oh, come on… you haven’t “missed” many opportunities – and you don’t have to be involved in every single thing that comes along.
Passion is overrated.
brother, tea tonight?
mmm, sorry I was really tired when I spoke to you yesterday and I don’t remember much of what is “actually going on”. But thanks for the email, it was lovely (:
But in terms of missed opportunities, I think (speaking from very personal experience on missed boats etc and a whole lot of self loathing hahaha, it’s something I’ve been struggling over with myself the last couple of years, and it’s sometimes still a daily journey) that it reminds me of something a friend said best about Malaysians migrating and Malaysians not, and Malaysians who don’t have a choice.
And she ended with something that struck me as the most honest, the most “correct” answer ever, and I think it really does apply from a Chrisitan point of view as well. “whereever I settle, I sure hope I’ll be happy.”
In her wisdom I think she has identified the heart of the problem and where the resolution lies. What ARE missed opportunities anyway? If at the end of the day we know who we are, if we are content with the bigger things in life. the things that matter.
Missed opportunities aren’t such bad things sometimes. Because in reality, we don’t know what’s worth missing and what’s worth lamenting about.
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i think 10n20 makes a very good point in her last para.
not much to say, except that burn-out is bad, and one must avoid it. even if it means missing a few boats. surely God will lead us to the right boats, which won’t burn us out. am i making sense? i feel like i’m using metaphors which i do not fully understand.
just a random note about what 10n20’s friend said. maybe it’s not as honest, and to some it might be over-spiritual, but i hope that i can say it with integrity: “wherever i settle, i sure hope He’ll be happy” rather than “wherever i settle, i sure hope I’ll be happy”. because i don’t think i can really be happy unless He is happy. and if i can, in a way, that’s even worse.