hell am I doing here?
good question.
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where am i?
what the hell am i doing?
dust has only just begun to fall
result slips on my laptop
sinking feelingslap me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can’t be happening
when “busy” lives a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavyhide and seek
grades and lingering excuses
all those years
i just don’t learnbloody marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover
the sweeping insensitivity of this “busy” lifehide and seek
grades and lingering excuses (oh, would you catch me around here?)
blood and tears (hearts)
i just don’t learnMmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it’s all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it’s just what we need
who decided this?
whatcha say?
Mmmm what do you say?
where are we?
what the hell
is going on…
XD
hmmm…
Turn the pain and anger into motivation….
my default response seems to be flight. it takes energy to generate motivation and I have never solved this problem satisfactory
mmm…you sort of know my response to this already (: but I believe in people + change when they try. beeeeeg hug. And you know where to find me if you need pep talking + ranting!
wow, you wrote this? very angsty. wonder how it sounds (it’s a song right?).
we’ll learn. if it takes the rest of our lives, we’ll learn. He’ll help us. =)
nah. I didn’t “write” that. I did my usual clobbering and butchering of an existing song/piece. The original lyrics are from Hide And Seek (Imogan Heap).
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Well, I’m really hoping to learn before he decides it’s time to break one of my hip joints. (It was a hip joint right? I don’t really remember)
yup, it’s the hip joint.=)
for those who are blur about what the hip we’re talking about, chee’s refering to Genesis 32:24-32 =P
don’t worry, He is loving and compassionate… he won’t dislocate your hip unless it’s absolutely necessary. =)
and then you get a hip joint replacement (if its completely shattered – not pretty), or you pop the femur back in and hope it heals – methinks you use an internal rod, but not so sure…..
(sorry, i read the past few comments and went all “med student”-sy)