What’s going on man? I’ve been reading a bunch of blogs…
and I seem to come across a common thread:
“…my attitude is gone and so’s my confidence. just waiting for God to save me .. waiting … and waiting… and waiting…”
“…my thoughts are all scattered and I can’t really make any conclusions about life. All my priorities are messed up and sadly,i cant really focus on my studies…”
“my life seems to be spinning outta control. dunno why.
dunno why i do the things i do
dunno why i feel the way i do
dunno much about anything worth knowing
dunno anything at all”“Seems like I’m gonna go drifting along again… just ‘letting events overtake me’”
(quotes printed without permission… forgive me =P)
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Wassup man? Is it considered normal for nearly all the teenaged people I know to be a bit messed up? (including myself?) And I think if you really look around you, you’ll find lots and lots of people who are hurting/depressed/messed up… but if pretty much everyone’s hurting? Who’s gonna be the doctor? I know, the “proper” answer is probably something like it’s God who’d heal us… it’s clique-ish… but I can’t shake the feeling that we weren’t ment to just stand by waiting for someone to come and tend to our wounds… Then there’s also the question ~ if God’s really God, and He’s a healing God, why aren’t we healed? Honestly, I’m not completely sure.
I’ve considered, could it be b’coz we didn’t even make a move to turn around? But if that’s what’s required, what exactly *is* “turning around”? Is it a confession? A decision? How? It’s not like He can’t heal or won’t… there are many testimonials to the contrary… hmm… How did *they* “get it right”? I fact, is the question even “getting it right”? Is my concept of how this should work fundamentally flawed? ~ ~ and so you see some of the whirling “logic” trains that clog up my mind… right now, I’ve gotten used to ignoring them… actually, it’s more like giving up than ignoring…
It sounds contradictory and maybe even paradoxical, but I somehow still just feel that soon, He’ll resolve all this… Bringing closure to the problem of not being able to resolve the issue of the instrument used to bring closure… Don’t worry if you don’t get what I’ve said… sometimes I don’t completely get what I say either…
But of late I’ve noticed another possibility… maybe complete “closure” is not supposed to happen *now* ~ now as in “on this side of heaven”. So perhaps, right now, what we need is to fight… The struggles will always be there (at least until heaven or the end of earth…), but as long as we fight…
my first reply in your blog.
haha… coincidence? I think it’s divine.
I’ve had my heavy dose of whirling logic train back in F4, which is 2002? now less.
I’ve read about repentance (turning around) in one of the BGR book and I sort of accepted it what does “turning around” means exactly.
From what I understand, “turning around” is more of like a decision you make to TURN around. It’s a change in direction, towards holiness.
As for the issue of whether God can heal/still heal now/ why isn’t he healing.
I believe that definitely God can heal.
I believe in modern days miracles and God is still perfoming great miracles of healing, even now in FCBC.
But there are times where there exist obstacles that contraint the work of God in people’s life (healing in this context), the biggest one being SIN.
“Bringing closure to the problem of not being able to resolve the issue of the instrument used to bring closure.”
There’s an instrument who is used to bring closure, but an issue has arises, and only God can bring closure (solve) to the problem.
Yup, complete “closure” is really not possible through us alone. Until the judgement day, struggles exists, but the notion is more positive. We’ve already win the battle because the enemy has already lost the battle and what he’s trying to do now is to deceive you in believing that there’s still a chance for us to lose the battle.
Victorious in Christ.
hahaha…. till the next post.